when it is a known migraine trigger. or part of a known series of complicated natural actions & situations that form, as far as you are able to understand, a migraine trigger.
looking at the sky is sometimes/not always the last in the series, which is a mix of weird/wildly variable weather, some nondescript amount of lack of sleep, and then looking at the sky. or glancing, really, not even looking.
and so yesterday cutting through the park on my way to take R to the dentist I glance at the sky and suddenly a part of it is missing, curved, fuzzy-
-and that’s an aura
-which means we have ~15 minutes to figure out what we’re doing before Everything shuts down.
And can we just insert a shout-out to Past Kevin here for realizing that since the Pandini all of my migraines with aura have occurred in the relative comfort of my own home, and what would happen if that didn’t happen? so maybe it’s a good idea to insert one tab of migraine medication in a jacket? for just in case? which I did???
the only question, really, was which pocket, because I am drawn to jackets with a lot of pockets. my current main winter jacket (which I am obsessed with) has maybe 9 or 11 pockets, it’s impossible to know for sure, there is no way to know.
so we are walking to the dentist and the world is increasing disappearing on me, faces now pixelated blurs, building walls slashed through with black & white rainbows of electricity. and i’m like frantically searching my pockets, trying to remain cool and normal. I search all extant aspects of the jacket and come up zero. which is weird because I definitely thought we had this discussion.
[brief aside/reminder of a thought to be teased out later, that time is not a straight line, that everything is always happening all at once]
but we get to the dentist and I sit down and am thinking I will try to go back home to get my medicine after R goes in for his appointment and THEN I remember the mysterious 9th (maybe 10th? certainly nth dimensional) pocket. and there it is. and they even have a helpful little water bubbler in the waiting room there. love it.
so I was able to get through the rest of the afternoon with relatively little drama, and even felt very normal that evening.
so the new plan is:
- continue to hide medication in pockets at all times
- somehow no longer be subject to the temperature swings happening with increased tempo and variability on this planet (?)
- not look at the sky basically ever
honestly…a lot more achievable than many business plans i’ve seen lately
hey kev how’s the job search going h a h a